NEARLY His

I wrote a humorous post on my personal Facebook page a month or so ago about how everything in my life is “book fodder” these days. I had no idea how quickly I would look back at that statement and say, “Well that was strangely prophetic!”

Since writing those words, God has taken me to some difficult and dark places in this book-writing journey. I thought I would be writing this book about things God has revealed to me in my life up until this point, but I think God sensed my openness and desire to draw nearer to Him; in response, He rolled up His sleeves and said, “No, honey, if we’re going to do this, we’re going to do this! Buckle up, and let’s get to work.”

Sometimes I feel like I’m on a journey of de-programming. It’s as if God starts digging into a deeply-held part of me that I didn’t even know was there, and the more we begin to dig, the more fallacies He begins to unearth. It’s a painful process, unraveling these messy thoughts and memories, and speaking His truth over lies I have believed for so long, that they feel as if they are a part of my DNA.

The beautiful part is when I begin to feel Him whispering “This isn’t right” or “This isn’t true,” and I’m newly awash in His Truth once again. It never feels like condemnation. Only love.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

1 Corinthians 13:6

I continuously ask God what He wants me to say and what He wants people to know. The difficult part is that He only seems to answer my questions with real-life personal experiences and lessons. I can confidently say these devotionals are much more about the “ministry of struggle” than any kind of victory.

Choosing to draw ever-nearer to God isn’t easy. Perhaps that’s because most of us, like me, are so far removed from holiness, that it takes a great deal of “stripping away” to take even one step towards our perfect God. I’m so thankful that Jesus bridges that gap for me, because I would never get there on my own. None of us would.

I love to imagine being in Heaven, and as I sit at my Father’s feet, He shows me all the ways He pursued me here on earth without me even knowing it. I revel in the knowledge that He is before me, beside me, and behind me with every step I take. He faithfully pursues us no matter where we end up, and beckons us to draw near to Him with words of truth and love.

I encourage you to take a step nearer to Him today.

NEARLY His,

Nicki

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